October 9, 2006
Monday – Evening
7:44 PM

To my Love,

To the love that I keep on hurting each and every day, to the one that has cried so many times because of my stupidity and selfishness, I am deeply sorry. I am so weak to have given in to the temptations of my delusions. So weak that every time you cry I can’t even make you stop and smile. I’m so useless, you always make me smile; make me feel that I’m not alone. You take my hand and help me rise up whenever I fall down and make me see that I can still turn the tides and make things right.

Sorry. Sorry for being weak. Sorry for not being able to help you whenever you have problems. Sorry for being perverted. Sorry if I keep on breaking my promises to you. Sorry for everything that I have done to you.


I love you.

The one who has always loved you,
Mykki

Hey this is the letter mykki emailed to jobelle though I know that it is bad to peak on others email.... God please i want to forget him... I wanna cry help me.

I feel like i can't bear anymore pain, why does he always make me sad.... i never wanna be sad.

He's just a guy help me

Rejected

I always hate being rejected. I hate being out of place, I just can't stand it so much...

I don't know why but when I don't have anybody I feel really really sad and it sucks...

I'm not numb but someone keeps saying so.. Is it my fault that I can't get my mind off the one I love and don't want to leave my dreamland... Whenever a friend of mine achieved something(it may sound stubborn) I hate not having one too..

Why Do I have to Fall in love?

I never knew love till I met him. I got lost thinking about him. I threw away real life just for him. I did everything for him but he did'nt even notice how I feel. He came to me whenever he and the one he love are fighting and I just pretend it's ok though itr really hurts a lot..... The endless dream of a paradise disappear as the sun sets to the west. I am now living in a graveyard full of corpse lying on the ground. I want to leave this place but it is the only way I can be with you so the hell I care... I can't go to sleep coz I always think of him. i wish I won't have to suffer this much...

What really sucks!!!

I realy can't stand people fighting over stupid things.

I don't want the one I love to go and I do'nt want them to stay...

I can't stand it last night when my folks fight... I do'n know why but it is I who feel guilty....

I don't know what to do, Please Lord kill me if you have to