October 9, 2006
Monday – Evening
7:44 PM

To my Love,

To the love that I keep on hurting each and every day, to the one that has cried so many times because of my stupidity and selfishness, I am deeply sorry. I am so weak to have given in to the temptations of my delusions. So weak that every time you cry I can’t even make you stop and smile. I’m so useless, you always make me smile; make me feel that I’m not alone. You take my hand and help me rise up whenever I fall down and make me see that I can still turn the tides and make things right.

Sorry. Sorry for being weak. Sorry for not being able to help you whenever you have problems. Sorry for being perverted. Sorry if I keep on breaking my promises to you. Sorry for everything that I have done to you.


I love you.

The one who has always loved you,
Mykki

Hey this is the letter mykki emailed to jobelle though I know that it is bad to peak on others email.... God please i want to forget him... I wanna cry help me.

I feel like i can't bear anymore pain, why does he always make me sad.... i never wanna be sad.

He's just a guy help me

Rejected

I always hate being rejected. I hate being out of place, I just can't stand it so much...

I don't know why but when I don't have anybody I feel really really sad and it sucks...

I'm not numb but someone keeps saying so.. Is it my fault that I can't get my mind off the one I love and don't want to leave my dreamland... Whenever a friend of mine achieved something(it may sound stubborn) I hate not having one too..

Why Do I have to Fall in love?

I never knew love till I met him. I got lost thinking about him. I threw away real life just for him. I did everything for him but he did'nt even notice how I feel. He came to me whenever he and the one he love are fighting and I just pretend it's ok though itr really hurts a lot..... The endless dream of a paradise disappear as the sun sets to the west. I am now living in a graveyard full of corpse lying on the ground. I want to leave this place but it is the only way I can be with you so the hell I care... I can't go to sleep coz I always think of him. i wish I won't have to suffer this much...

What really sucks!!!

I realy can't stand people fighting over stupid things.

I don't want the one I love to go and I do'nt want them to stay...

I can't stand it last night when my folks fight... I do'n know why but it is I who feel guilty....

I don't know what to do, Please Lord kill me if you have to

Broken Heart

So Sick

It's hard to love somebody who doesn't care for you. It's hard that even though you are at his side he is thinking of another person. It's like having to buy an ice cream but you are not allowed to eat it and somebody else did. Oh my gosh if i know this would not happen I would never tried it you might say. But you can never escape from it.

Never Meant to Be
Everyday a guy will go and fetch a girl but is not her girlfriend.Since he wanted the girl to find out for herself what he really feel,he never intend to tell. But then the girl didn't notice and she loved another guy. The guy regret what he have done and he almost felt like the world was on his shoulders.He killed himself and then the girl just then realize that he had love that guy.

In my nightmare

I don't know why but people are always fighting and i hate that...

I want peace OK so maybe sometimes I only think about myself but there are times that i don't care about me but just everybody else...

i know that people makes mistakes and I admit that I do but can't anybody just accept that and go on without minding other people's business...

The Other side

It's hard to cope up with the real world when you can't get out of your dreams....
Hey I wish that I have the power ot make everybody happy coz I can't stand it when people fight...
My dad is acting like a realjerk.
The family I use to know is gone... I mean everyone's different...
There's no one I could talk to now....
Somebody help!!!
ASAP

Who am i?

This is my first entry so I'm gonna tell you about myself first:
My name is joan but I like my name to be Daphney. My family is one big happy one...
I think I hate my mother cause she is always ruining my life and never gave me respect as an individual... My father is a drunk and I don't like him when he do that which is 6x a week...
My siblings are total cruel...I'm the eldest but they are hurting me as if they are the boss
I like a guy who likes somebody else and I don't know what to do anymore... There is a guy who likes me but never talks to me...
I want to become a writer but they want me to be a nurse(I'm afraid of blood)...Some support from family....